People often wonder how I am a virgin in 2015. How did I go 29 years without having sex and “I am as good looking as I am” ( Their words not mine) Here is my “How?” In my early 20’s, I used to have dinner dates with a ghost.
When my friends were going to “do them”, this would be me;
Me: Gotta go, got a date!
Friends: With who?
When my friends asked me who, I couldn’t say the Holy Ghost because they would not have understood. Me saying Jesus, was special enough to them.
Yes, during my early 20’s you could find me frequently running home to have dates with the Holy Ghost. These moments put me in the very heartbeat of God. Our dates allowed me to hear Him so clearly. True, I have never had sex, but I can only hope that when I do, it equates to the levels of pleasure and intimacy I experienced, on these nights, I dined with the Holy Ghost.
They were so great! I felt so loved, so cared for, so special, so comforted! As I reflect back to those dates, those days of natural singleness, I needed Him to make me feel so beautiful. These dates, these intimate moments, they kept me from searching for those feelings in something else or SOMEONE ELSE! For this I am forever grateful.
Candles, good home cooked meal, makeup, gorgeous outfit. I would show up and show out for Him and He never disappointed. He knew how to tug on my heart and take me into the secret place.
I was so HUNGRY for the things of God. The only person who could satisfy my desires and my hunger was the Holy Ghost. I knew this and I acted accordingly. I submitted myself to Him. Whatever He wanted me to do I did. I sat at his feet, at his table, wherever He needed me to be, to hear from Him!
My purity comes from my desire to live a life that pleases my first love, Jesus! It was from this desire, that I learned that spending time hugged up and “boo loving” with the Holy Ghost was the only way I would be able to maintain my walk on the path of purity! Yes, people thought I was weird and sure, when I was younger it bothered me. I began to keep my dates a secret. I didn’t tell so many people about these passionate moments with the Holy Ghost. It wasn’t until I was past the age of 25 and I was truly confident in my walk & His purpose for my life, that I started telling anyone I could about my awesome dates with my love!
You want to truly live for Christ? You want to truly live like Christ? GET IN HIS FACE! He is not here in the flesh but, He is here in Spirit. It doesn’t always have to be at church or in a prayer meeting. Just as you would prepare to go out to meet that special someone or even a blind date, prepare to meet the Holy Ghost.
Matthew 5:6 says, “Blessed are those who Hunger and Thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.” and Deuteronomy 4:29 says, “But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul.”
Seek Him and You will find Him! Before I found my Boaz in the flesh, I had Him in Spirit. Not only did the Holy Ghost make me feel like a queen, He showed me how a natural man should make me feel. I am a firm believer that a natural man can give you supernatural love.
Be encouraged! Be Motivated! Go have that dinner date with the Holy Ghost and I pray He makes you feel like never before! Mark your calendar, YOU HAVE A DATE!
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